Monday, June 28, 2010

Let's lay it all out.

I'd like to say I'm doing this to get healthy, but that's a load of shit. Honestly, I just want to get hot. I'm 22. I'm entitled to focus more on my looks than my blood pressure. Getting skinny is what I'm after, getting healthy will be a nice side effect. Just want to get that out there. I've done plenty of weight loss plans in the past 12 years, but blogging had never had it's part in any of them. I feel like with having readers (and myself) holding me accountable, this might be just what I needed.

I've always been the overweight friend. By the time I got to the 5th grade, I was well over 100 pounds. I hit in the 170's my senior year of high school, and started going to PT Gym. A trainer there made a bet with me and gave me a diet and exercise plan. The bet was that if I followed his plan for 3 months, he would give me $50. I honestly couldn't care less about the $50, but this trainer was a total babe, so that's what kept me going. Seriously. So, I stuck to the plan and lost over 20 pounds. Then was hired at the gym. I kept losing and getting more and more in shape. I even got certified to teach a kickboxing class. The lowest I maintained was around 135. I was a size 6, but of course still thought I was fat. I was a ra-tard.

Then I got married. I literally blew up. I've been on a steady climb up the scale ever since, and now I'm in the 180's. This is ridiculous. I cry when I get dressed, none of my clothes fit, and I hate my body. I'm a chronic dieter, and I'll lose a few pounds, then put them right back on. My metabolism is shot.

Weight loss in a nut shell is this: burn more calories than you take in. That's it. Your body takes from your fat reserves and uses that for energy, causing you to lose weight. I KNOW this in my head, but making myself do it for an extended period of time is another story.

That's where you come in! I want everyone who is ready for change to join me. Share here your goals, struggles, triumphs, all that crap. I want to know. And I'll share mine with you. I'll keep you updated with my weight, with pics, with my diet, all that jazz.

Here are my goals: I want to go shopping because my clothes are too big for me, not because they are too small. I want to get a belly button ring again. I want to run in a sports bra and not jiggle. I want people to notice my face first, not my stomach. I want to WANT to go to the beach. I am currently a size 14. I'm going to be a size 6 again.

What are your goals?

I'm starting this physical and emotional beating tomorrow, so stay tuned.

22 comments:

  1. I'm very excited about this... I've always been a little overweight and now I'm 170. All of my friends are size zeros... and well I feel like crap. i hate being overweight. I also hate having all of clothes not fitting also. blarg. I toooooo have been attempting to work out and get skinny.. oh yeah be healthy too but.. I'm just so busy I always seem to skip the gym... but I do plan on going tomorrow morning!

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  2. Dude, it's ridiculous. Like, I obsess over it. Plus California is so superficial, you know? It's easier for me if I make myself go to the gym in the morning, too. If I put it off until later in the day, I end up putting it off altogether. Good luck! Keep me updated!

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  3. It's always good to have the support of people that are in the same boat. I've always been overweight. I don't ever remember wearing a size in the single didgets. Last year, while my husband was deployed I decided to make a change and joined weightwatchers and am still a member. But ever since my husband got back I've had a hard time getting motivated. Since I started weightwatchers I've lost a total of 30 pounds and over the past few months have managed to gain back 10 of those pounds. I'm ready to get back on track. I wanna be confident in a swimsuit! Exercise is my pitfall and it's time to overcome it! Thanks for leading way! :)

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  4. You go girl! I've thought about weight watchers, just never went through with it. Do you recommend it? Try to get back in the mindset you had while you were losing! That's what I'm going for. Good luck! Keep me updated!

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  5. Hey everyone! Guess I will be the first guy to actually post this. I have never been apart of a blog and I am excited about this one. Just gonna say you women are not the only ones in this battle. As a guy I hate being the biggest one of my friends for many reasons. Self confidence is a huge thing...I have little. The heaviest I became was about 7 months ago I went up to 315 lbs. ZZZ. That is way to high. I always told myself I didn't care how big I was and if I ever got over 300 I would do something about it. Now I am! With this blog hopefully it will be easier to keep motivated and keep going.

    I started P90X and the P90X diet May 30. I broke up with my girlfriend about 2 months ago and I guess that is another reason I wanted to do this. And girls, I am with you, if I get "healthy" that is cool, but honestly I just want to look good!

    Yesterday was the start of week 4 in my 90 day program and so far I have gone from 296 to 283. I set a goal for 265 and I struggle every single day to keep this thing going. My diet is very very strict and its hard to keep on track. Me and my roommate are doing this together and he has done it before. He had great results the first time he did this but he also has much more will power than I do. Everyday I just want to eat a damn cheeseburger but so far I have stayed strong and not strayed from my diet. I can have 1 cheat meal a week and I usually do that on Sunday.

    On the good side of my diet so far though is, like I said I am down to 283 and I haven't weighed that since my senior year in high school. Friend, family, and my roommate really do help with the motivation so I hope we can do this for each other as well with this blog.

    Ill stay tuned. Let me know what kind of diets and exercise programs yal will be doing. Good luck to us! WE CAN DO THIS!

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  6. I would definitely recommend trying it. I like it cuz its about changing your way of thinking instead of simply depriving yourself. My mom lost 60 pounds on weight watchers and was and is a big support. You can go to meetings or do it all online. I go to meetings, although I haven't been in probably a month or so (hence the weight gain). I like the meetings because everyone is really supportive and I don't feel like I'm being judged for my weight cuz everyone's in the same boat. When I first started it was pretty easy cuz I wasn't working and I could go to the gym everyday. Now I'm working and when I'm not, I just want to spend time with my hubby. So thats been my struggle. But I totally think its worth the money.

    Mindset is half the battle! but once your in it, it makes things much easier. I'm looking forward to getting on the wagon and strapping myself in!!! =]

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  7. Hey Brandon! Thanks for sharing. I totally feel you on everything you said. I know tons of people who have done P90X, and it really worked for them. It really is all will power though. And the longer you do it, the more you will feel like it is a lifestyle and not a punishment. The weight loss is a huge motivation too :)

    Jenna, I need to talk to the hubby about it, but I'm really interested. I'd probably do better in the meetings than I would on line. I'll keep you updated.

    Good luck everybody! Stay motivated!

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  8. SUPER excited about this! Thank you for wanting the support that will help others too!

    I, too, have always been the heavy one, the one that only 'certain' people find attractive because they take the time to get to know me, the beach involves a t-shirt and Capri's (forget a bathing suit!). During my ex-husbands first deployment I got into gear and lost around 90 pounds (YAY!!) got married slim... and then put most of it back on. Several years, four more deployments, many pounds, a ton of stress, and a divorce later... I am now healed from the wounds with a wonderful man in my life to treats me right, and I want to get back to the weight I was then. I am idling right around 230 lately (I am 5'6") and my goal is 160 (a healthy and comfortable weight for me). I have already started (about two weeks in) but haven't lost anything quantifiable yet :-(.

    I can't wait to see how all of you do! Good luck to everyone!!

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  9. Haley I have always admired you for your ability to get yourself on track and run with it. We already know you and I have a lot in common & I go up and down and it's super freaking annoying. Brandon, power to you, P90x is serious! And congrats on your weight loss so far.
    In a little over a month I've lost 10 pounds. My goal is to be 140, which is about 3 pounds more than what my "healthy" weight is.. you know the weight the doctor tells you you should be! I don't want to be SKINNY, I love curves. I just don't love the extent of my curves at the moment! I weighed myself last week and I was at 155. 15 more pounds to go doesn't sound like a whole lot and sounds like it should be easy, but once you get yourself to that platue it gets more tough and that's currently where I'm at. I don't know what else to cut out of my diet or change about it ... all I Know is more cardio!
    I have a list of quotes I also read almost every day to keep myself going. If yall want to hear some of those let me know & i'll post them, they may help you keep going too! I'm excited to follow this journey with yall! :D

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  10. Woo! Good for you for finding a good guy. Now you can focus on YOU. What are you doing as far as diet and exercise?

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  11. When I met you, you do not look heavy at all. But everyone has their thoughts about themselves. I too would love to get skinny and be a MILF. I am at 180, was 210 before pregnancy so Ive lost some but Im stuck now. I wanted a quick fix, but those dont truly exist. I am going to school to be a Personal Trainer. I downloaded P90x and 2 days ago did the ab part and my abs still hurt lol. Oh Im Christina, Mom to Alexis.

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  12. Heather, GIRL we've been in the same boat for a LOOONNNGGG time, lol! 155 is a great weight. I'm aiming for around 145 myself, but I'm focusing more on clothing size than weight. I got some man muscle on me, lol. I'd LOVE to hear some quotes, and I'm sure everyone else would to! I take a lot of quote and put them on Post-It's and stick them random places as reminders. Do you do any strength training? I recommend changing up your workout when you plateau. Your body adapts to anything, and to keep losing, you'll have to keep shocking it.

    Christina, thank you, but I think it's more that I've seen myself smaller and I know I can do it. That's awesome that you're going to school to be a personal trainer! And yep, we do the P90X ab workout at the gym and it is INTENSE, lol. Keep it up!

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  13. Whew, lordy - Where to start?

    1. I think this blog is awesome.

    2. When I married George, I weighed 140 pounds. Yep, true story - 7 years ago. I know I've had two kids, but let's face it - people have kids and go back to their weight all the time. It's a lame excuse and I've used it as a crutch for too long. My husband is freakin' HOT, and he's in shape, and I am embarrassed for him to have to be married to someone that looks like me. I've never said that out loud before, but it's true.

    3. I'm nursing this baby - so that helps with the calorie burning, but I also think in my head... "well, I can eat more b/c I'm burning more" --- so dumb.

    4. Weight Watchers works, I did it - a good rule of thumb is 50 calories = 1 point. That's not the exact science of it, but in most cases it's true. When I weighed 180 (I'm 210 now - GASP!) I did 28 points a day. Weight Watchers is basically what you are doing, though - counting calories and excercising - it's the only way to go.

    5. Thanks for starting this. And AMEN - I'm 25, and I'd like to be healthy --- but I want to be HOT more.

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  14. Yes, I do my cardio in the mornings (usually) on an empty stomach, then my strength training at night. I alternate legs/arms/abs... I've also been researching new workouts for different parts of my body!
    Here are some quotes I read every day & i'm sure you all have probably heard most of them, but try reading them every day & repeating them to yourselves while working out.. it works for me!

    Act the way you want to become and you'll become the way you act.
    All things are difficult before they become easy.
    (my favorite -->) Doing just enough to get by isn't enough to get ahead!
    if it's to be, it's up to me.
    No guts, no glory!
    When you know what you want, and you want it badly enough, you'll find a way to get it.
    Don't ask for an easier life, ask to be a stronger person.

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  15. Jay, I hear you. I get bitter when Chase works out more than I do because I'm scared people look at us like "what is HE doing with HER?!"

    I think I'm learning that I need to be motivated by this because I WANT to look hot, not because I hate the way I look. I'll be much more likely to follow through if it's positive motivation, not negative. SO glad you're on board!

    Heather, LOVE THOSE! Keep posting, I know I will benefit from those quotes, and I'm sure others will too.

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  16. I can't wait to join you come December! My weight loss started mid-February, and by the end of March I had lost 15 pounds. Then I peed on a stick. It's hard to watch that number climb back up, even if it is because another person is growing in my tummy. =P
    Good luck, Hales! You can do it!!

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  17. Hahaha, you have good reason, Emmy! Once baby blueberry comes into the world, you can start getting sexy again :)

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  18. Hey Haley,

    Loving the blog. Mad props to you for having the guts to put this out there. I have had the same exact issue throughout my entire life. Some of my girlfriends complain about weighing 145 pounds, and I remember so vividly, the day I got my Ident-A-Kid card in the 4th grade, my card read: 146 pounds! (I was 9!!!)

    I was the fat kid all the way through high school, wore a size 18, and was really pissed off at myself for never doing anything about it and totally PETRIFIED of what my classmates thought. I felt like, to them, I had no name or face- or personality... I was just the fat chick.

    Fast Forward to my junior year of college, before I met my best friend- she had recently lost 50 pounds through WeightWatchers. She briefly explained it to me, I thought it sounded too complicated, so I wasn't really interested. But throughout the beginning of our friendship, she just kept talking about how amazing the program was. Later, she decided to start back on it, so I decided that I'd like to give it a try, too. I weighed 209 pounds and was in a 16. Catie explained to me how it worked, we calculated how many points I should be able to have a day and then Catie showed me how to calculate points. Since I didn't want to calculate my points before every time I ate, I took a black Sharpie and wrote point values per serving on the container. (I.e. Peanut Butter 5 pts. for 2 tbl. spoons) This also helped me remember to add points onto my daily total (the big black number is sort of hard to miss.) I also excercised for 40 minutes 3 or 4 times a week (I was terribly out of shape, so this was a lot.)

    Long story short: I lost 30 pounds. I felt ahhh-mazing. I was wearing 12s and I was even able to get into some 10s! For a girl who was once a size 18, this is a BFD!

    This was a year and 3 months ago. I have since started dating and gotten engaged to a Puerto Rican man who owns a Mexican restaurant, thus I have 24-hour access to cheese dip and the best food you could dream of. Some one is always cooking! So, I have gained about 7 pounds back and I keep fighting with them. I go to the gym (Spinning) and I still am mindful of my points (though I frequently go over them).

    My best advice, go for Weight Watchers. It's easy (once you figure out the system). If you join online, there is a wonderful support group, people are constantly sharing "low point" ideas, and my favorite- the app for BlackBerry!!! Another benefit- even though being healthy isn't on the top of the list, WW tricks you into being healthy. I guess it really tricks you into being skinny. It facilitates eating in moderation and encourages you to eat frequently. Plus you can almost eat whatever you want.

    Here's a trick I used: Take a really unattractively posed picture of yourself that shows, what you feel, are your least attractive attributes- and tape it on the kitchen door, pantry, fridge, inside of your wallet (if you are tempted to buy treats)- this way it is always there staring you in the face! It's like giving yourself tough love. (Just be sure to hide them before company comes over. Haha)

    This was a long post, I know. But- good luck! I'm totally rooting for you. And I can't wait to see your results.

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  19. Its nice to get to read all this. Really does help me stay motivated.

    Monday I will be starting month 2 of my P90x stuff. Its rough and tough, kicks my ass everyday I feel like quitting. But I will not sway from my goal. I am 15 lbs away from my goal of 265. Ugh I feel huge.

    It is great that all of my jeans and my shorts are too big for me now. I normally wear a belt just because, now the belt actually keeps my pants from not falling off! Its a great feeling. And if you are one of the ppl that can never find your size in a damn store...dont feel bad. As a guy its hella tough for me 2. Have to resort to ordering online a lot of the times.

    Well keep it up peeps, Ill pray for you and you pray for me. We can kick this weight problem's ass together!!!

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  20. Becca, I TOTALLY understand where you're coming from! Everything that you've mentioned, I've felt. And I couldn't imagine being dating/engaged to Tony... I would bathe in cheese dip, hahaha! That's one of those things I just can't say no to. Margaritas are another. It's so easy to fall off the wagon, but we can all be there for each other to encourage one another to jump back on! I'll definitely look into WW. I just need to figure out the cost, but I'm pretty positive it's something I'm gonna go for. Thank you SO much for sharing! I'm rooting you on too!

    Brandon, you are SO close! Just don't give up once you reach your goal. You'll still have to work hard to maintain, just not as hard as you are working now to lose :) Keep it up and keep sharing!

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  21. Hey peeps!. So Im on day 33. Trying to keep strong and keep pushing myself. Weighed myself Monday morning and I was at 280! Last week was rest week so I didnt really get to lose much. Kept off what ate though, so thats good. Just started Phase 2 of P90x Monday and this shit is rough! Day one of it was a tough workout and it left me pretty sore yesterday and I still feel it today. Its alright though, good thing about being sore is this...you know you are doing something right!

    And Hales I know im so close. I def want to keep going after my 90 days are up not just for keeping it off but to really see what I can do and how far I can go. The routine and diet is becoming easier and easier so if I just stick to it, when my first 90 days are over hopefully I can just keep going. It is tough though.

    Keep up the hard work everyone! Laterz!

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  22. Yeet! I love being sore. It totally makes me feel like I'm doing something. What exactly is your diet, Brandon?

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